Torn

I just remembered that I got my RWA PRO status a month ago. I got a pin, which I put on my jean jacket. Now that summer has started, though, the jean jacket has gone in the closet. So no one will see my pin until October or so. Where else am I supposed to put the thing - my spaghetti strap top?

I felt happy to possess a pin, and then I completely forgot about PRO status. Until I got another rejection yesterday and thought maybe I could use a little support in this whole "you suck" business of writing. Look, I like Diana's Diversions, and I'm glad she's so successful as to quit her day job and endlessly promote her book, but I'm just not in the mood right now. Are there any other losers out there?

Maybe they're hiding in the PRO email lists. I forgot there are PRO lists. So I tried to sign up and realized I've forgotten my RWA password 'cos I've never used it. Several emails later, I'm finally signed up.

Hubby has to work tomorrow, and we have no kids, so I have an entire Sunday to myself. I plan to write, but I'm torn. The old novel needs a rewrite - I have some ideas to make it better. That will take a lot of work. I also have to put together some more queries to go out to agents.

But the new WIP is calling to me, too, and it has to get done. I'm making progress on it, but it's slow due to my time limitations - I write only about 45 minutes a day. At this rate the first draft will be done in 2007. So I need to put a push on.

Not sure yet what I'm going to do tomorrow. I'm thinking of splitting the day evenly in two - half on the old book, half on the new. That is, if all the housework and errands get done today...

Schizophrenic,
Abby